Check out my short video on facebook. Wishing you a beautiful Sunday! I am so excited to see my So Cal friends and family in a few weeks!
May 12, 2019
Check out my short video on facebook. Wishing you a beautiful Sunday! I am so excited to see my So Cal friends and family in a few weeks!
May 5, 2019
This past month has been filled with moments of pure realness in my life and I wanted to take this moment to be real with you. My life is far from perfect or ease. I have real struggles just like you. I have had many life altering changes in the last 6 months that have had profound effects on me. Moments where life taps you on the shoulder and says “Pay attention, I have something to teach you!”
I have been getting settled into my new home in Auburn. I am teaching a lot of classes and starting to acclimate to my new area. One of the things that has come up in my meditation is that I don’t feel like I am being completely real with all of you. I have had friends comment that I am “living the good life”. In some ways I am and in other ways it is down right stressful. You see, we have hit a bump in the road with our finances and so I am teaching as much as I can and Doug is looking for a full-time job. In dealing with this financial bump in the road I have had to dig deep to find gratitude in this situation. A big part of finding gratitude in my situation is honesty and Being Real. All of us have hardships and suffering. There is no need to pretend that everything is perfect. Whether it is health, or finances or family issues- all of us are going through something. It is during these difficult times that gratitude becomes even more important. When we feel gratitude for the simple things in our lives we are connected to the world outside of our problems. Thus, making our problems easier to cope with and we develop a sense of true realness in our lives.
‘ The more Grateful I am, the more my life is supported“- Deepak Chopra
So I remind myself everyday of the things I am grateful for and to cherish them all.
What are grateful in your life? The simple things. It is easy to be grateful when everything is going right in your life. But can you find gratitude even during the most difficult of times?
Now, on to up and coming news!
Next month I will be coming down to So Cal for a workshop and I will be staying at Cyndee’s house. I will be there on Thursday May 30 and heading home on Sunday June 2. Cyndee will be hosting an open house style “Meet & Greet” at her house on Friday May 31 from 4pm-6pm. Come on over for some conversation, coffee/ tea and cookies! I would love to see you and catch up! I hope to see you on this trip. If I don’t, you can always email me or call me.
I still have a few spaces left for my Gratitude Workshop on Saturday June 1 at Total Woman Gym. Click here for more details.
Have a beautiful day filled with gratitude. And remember to keep it real!
April 7, 2019
Last week I experienced a random act of kindness
from a stranger. It moved me and reminded me that there a people in the world
that truly care about one another.
So here’s what happened….
I was leaving the grocery store and when I got to my car I realized I could
not find my cell phone. I quickly went back into the store to the checkout
counter thinking I left it there. The cashier was very helpful and called the
security to alert them and to check the video cameras to see if anyone walked
off with it. ( I did not even know they do that!) Meanwhile, I retraced my
steps and went all the way back to the deli. A woman there helped me look to
see if i dropped it and offered to call it for me. I politely said no. You see,
I realized I left my ringer off as I just came back from teaching a class. (A
bad habit of mine!) I kept searching and people stopped to help me look. I had
stepped back outside to look around and a woman stopped me.
She asked me “what are you looking for?”
I replied “my cell phone”
She replied ‘could that be it’? And pointed to underneath a car next to her.
I crouched down and looked. There was an object sitting next to the inside
of the tire. Sure enough it was my phone just sitting there face up not a
scratch or mark on it. I turned to the stranger and said ” Thank you so
much’! And hugged her!
I left the grocery store with my heart warm and a deep gratitude for all of
the people that helped me look for my phone. They were generally concerned and
did not expect anything from me for their help.
With everything going on in the world today it is important to remember our connectedness to one another. We are all people living on the same planet, sharing the same air, finding our way on this journey of life. When we can pause our hurriedness, take time to help a stranger, we are reminded of this. The simplicity that everyone has struggles and kindness can go a long way. A simple smile can change a person’s day.
As you move through your day, take a moment to contemplate what kindness means to you. Where do you see it showing up in your life? How can you express kindness to others?
The gift of kindness is priceless.
March 19, 2019
This past week has been filled with sunshine and warmer weather. The sun feels absolutely wonderful and the everything looks so vibrant! There is green all around me and clear blue skys. I feel like a veil has been lifted off of me and I can finally “see” things more clearly.
I did not realize how much the winter darkness and constant rain was affecting me. In addition to adjusting to the move I discovered that I was experiencing the Winter Blues. I was anxious, I had difficulty sleeping, I was depressed and irritable. I thought these symptoms were just a part of the adjustment phase of the move. But then the sun came out and my symptoms went away! I can think clearly again, I am more focused, I have more energy and most importantly, I feel like myself.
It is so interesting to me how nature affects us. Think about how a beautiful sunrise or sunset fills you with peace or how the sight and sounds of the ocean are simply soothing.
We process many sensations through our eyes. Visual awareness of our environment can have a profound affect on us. Taking advantage of small moments to simply gaze and absorb the beauty around us can soothe our souls. We begin to let go of the past and stop worrying about the future. This visual stimulation plants us into the present moment where we can stop the business of life and just breathe.
My friend from high school visited us last month and he brought us this beautiful bird bath. It looks great in our front yard. We are beginning to see things bloom in our yard. We have no idea what kinds of trees, plants and flowers we have. Every few days we see a new flower or a bud making it’s way out. It’s like a surprise and we are so excited to see what we have!
I had a request to show more of the outside of my house. I have serenity walking path just outside my patio door. Take a moment, breathe and enjoy the visual stimulation. I hope these videos let you pause for a moment and have some clarity in your life.
Have a beautiful day!
Here are two video links with a tour of my the back of of my house .
February 9, 2019
I wanted to share with you all of the wonderful changes that I have experienced this month. But before I get to it, I wanted to share how I got here.
When I first moved I was trapped in my sadness and longing for my old life. I missed my friends, family, students, gym and yoga studio. I was anxious, scared and suffering deeply. I wanted my old life back.
Then something switched in my head. I was severely attached to my old life and I needed to let go of the past to step into the future. So I began making changes on my website. I deleted information about classes I no longer taught and deleted pages that were no longer relevant to my current life. Within minutes of making changes to my website I got a call about a teaching job. And so my new life began to unfold. Now I am teaching 8 classes a week at a couple of gyms!
After struggling to find a place to teach, I finally found a wonderful gym that welcomed me with open arms. I had actually joined this gym to have a place to workout and take classes and then an instructor left and I was hired. It all happened pretty fast! I love working here! The people are so nice and the classes are smaller because the studio is small. Its nice being able to get to know people. I am finally starting to feel like myself. I realized that teaching is a huge part of me and when I was not doing it I felt like a part of me was gone. Like I lost a limb. But now I am getting my groove back and my life is starting to feel normal. One of the new classes I am teaching is Silver Sneakers. I just got certified in this format and I am enjoying teaching it. I also teach a chair yoga class at our clubhouse and this class is packed with about 35 people every week! In this class the age range is 50 years old to 94! There are some students who come with their walkers or oxygen tanks, and other that have no physical issues. It’s amazing to witness them all together.
We discovered that we have a Cedrus deodara tree in our front yard! This is a Divine Tree and we can also see this it from our living room. It is amazing to me that I have such a sacred tree that I can see from both inside and outside of my house. Our house is surrounded by a ton of beautiful trees. It is like living in the forest! Its very peaceful and quiet. It is so quiet that we have been sleeping in until 8 or 9am! It has actually been hard for me to get to an 8 am class. LOL!
My internet is very slow right now, Unfortunately I cannot do videos that are longer than a minute or so. We hope to get a new internet service soon. For now, I have learned how to do live chat through Facebook and Duo. Duo is the app I use on my Samsung phone that is similar to Face-time on the Iphone. If you have an Iphone you can download the Duo app. I actually did a private lesson over Duo with a client from So Cal. It was great! So if you want to chat face to face let me know! I would love to see you!
We celebrated my husband’s 50th birthday last month. My daughter and her fiance surprised Doug by taking a trip up here to visit him. He was totally shocked when she just showed up at the house! It was the best! Here are a bunch of pictures from our celebration.
Well that’s about everything that has happened this month! It has been a busy month. I leave you with the reminder to accept life’s challenges, to celebrate life as often as possible, and to live life at the fullest. I am learning to accept all these changes in my life and to go day by day. And as much as I miss my old life, I am opening myself to my new life.
“In the end these things matter the most: How well did you love? How fully did you live? How deeply did you let go?”- Buddha
January 4, 2019
I am in a difficult and scary space right now as I try to understand myself. I moved and left everything that I know behind. All the comforts of home, my yoga family, my gym family, my friends and my studio. I have moments of sheer panic when I dwell on all that I left behind. The familiar and safe surroundings and the comfort of my teaching jobs. I have moments of deep sadness when I think of all of my friends and family back home.
But then a light shines and I am reminded of what I have gained by moving.
I realized I am facing the fear of not working. Of not teaching. Now that I have all this free time I am struggling to figure out what to do with myself. Who am I if I do not teach? I feel like a limb has been cut off of me and I am having phantom pains. Flashes of what it was like when I was teaching. It’s not for a lack of trying. I have put myself out there thinking someone would want me to teach for them. But so far I have had a couple of heartbreaking let downs and no luck finding a job. So I passed out my resume and business cards with an air of desperation. Only to be told, “we have no openings”. I have not even been asked to audition ( which is normal for my field). I feel like I am not being ‘seen” and it has been soul crushing.
But then something shifted inside me….
I realized how much of a workaholic I am. I use work to fill me up and I have become completely dependent on it.
A couple of days ago I told myself to stop all this nonsense. To just stop pushing. Why is it so bad to not be working? I realized I have been working so much and so hard for so long that I feel “less than” when I am not working. Like there is some magical formula that makes me a better person for working. I am afraid to see myself without my coat of teaching.
Whoa, wait! Wasn’t I just complaining that no one up here will “see” me for who I am?
I have always recognized the light in people around me. So much so that I let my own light become dim. Fear has hidden my own light from myself. It’s time for me to turn the light on and not be afraid. To look at myself beyond being a teacher. To let go of my fear of the unknown and embrace it.
The light in me shines bright as I recognize the light that shines bright in you.
Click here for a Happy New Year video clip.
December 1, 2018
I have had to let go of so much this past month and it’s finally starting to hit me. My home is now 6 hours away from everything I know. My family, my friends, my work and my community. With the intensity and busyness of the move I have not really processed all that I have left behind. But in my heart I know I am in the right place. My husband and I are a great team and wherever we call home, we know we have each other. Our home is in our hearts not the house we live in. Everything we left behind is with us in our minds and hearts.
As I settle into my new home I am finally starting to feel some sense of normal in my life. I am a neat freak and when my house is in disarray I get very anxious. I have had to learn to cope with this anxiety and let go of it. Breathe IN, Breathe Out has become my mantra. This move has taught me that the world does not end because my house is a mess and that I can work through these emotions.
When our foundation ( our home) has been shifted there is a moment of complete imbalance. Like the moment the trapeze artist lets go of the bar to reach for the other. There is a level of trust that the next bar will be there. Sometimes I cannot see the next bar, or I am afraid to grab it. But then I remind myself to Breath In and Breathe Out. My head clears, my heart rate slows down and I can see the next step. I have learned to take things one day at a time, one box at at a time.
Here are some are things that I have learned about life during my transition.
As I get ready to start another day of unpacking and organizing, I want to thank all of you for your support and love. My send off parties were amazing and gave me the strength I needed for this transition. I have not forgotten you. I have packed all of you up in my heart and put you safe place.
In case you don’t follow me on Facebook, below are some pictures I posted.
October 28, 2018
The first change was that I stopped teaching in the Santa Clarita Valley. I had such a hard time saying goodbye to my students and cried so much that I was dehydrated. LOL! I was filled with grace and gratitude for all the years I got to spend with them. I was so humbled by their praise and sadness for seeing me go. Everyone was so generous with their feelings and many of us cried together. Yes, there was sadness on both sides for me leaving, but there was also great joy for my new life ahead of me. I felt so much love and support that it shocked me! I had no idea that there was going to be such an out pour of feelings. I took it all in and then took a week to process it all. It was very strange to feel such joy and sadness at the same time!
The second change is that I am moving to Northern California. And with this transition comes all of the headaches with buying a new house and selling my house. We have been on a roller coaster with our escrow changes and move date changing, I have had to learn really fast to let go of my plans and trying to organize the move! This was really hard for me because my life revolves on careful planning and organizing. I have had to talk myself off the ledge with each bump and hurdle that has been thrown my way. My husband has been my rock and the one who has saved me from my own control issues. He helped me through each melt down and taught me to just go with the flow. The interesting thing that happened is that when I resolved to just let it happen, things started to calm down! I learned that the world will not end because our move date changed. I learned that we can reschedule our new carpet instillation at the new house. I learned that we can do our home improvements any time. I learned that it does not matter which date we actually move. And, I learned that if this whole thing falls through, we can start over. It would be hard, but we know we want to move, so it will happen. I learned that my husband and I make a great team and we can face any changes. We are strong together. We accept that we do not have control over the process of this move, so we are letting go of things we cannot control.
The last change that has happened is that I am not defining my life around work. I have always worked and if I was off a day or two, I was planning to work! It has been a big adjustment to not have a this big element in my life. Again, with grace and gratitude, I have had to accept that I am not working and that’s okay. I will be okay. My students will be okay. I am now facing the task of knowing that I am not defined by work. I am more than a yoga and fitness teacher. This has been the hardest for me and is still very much a work in progress. I am learning that I do not have to have all of the answers right now and that I do not have to put everything in a neat box. ( pun intended! ) It is okay that things are messy in my life right now. My house, my feelings, and my sense of Self. I am trusting the journey with grace, gratitude and acceptance.
What are you struggling with your life? Are there things that you can let go of that are out of your control? Can you accept each day as it comes with grace and gratitude? What things are holding you captive in your life?
Here is an excerpt from a book I have been reading and sharing at my last yoga retreats. It really helps explain the act of letting go of the things that keep us in captivity.
From Deborah Adele’s book, The Yamas and Niyamas.
“Let Go of the Banana!- like the breath and the trapeze artist- this process gives us insights into how we stay attached to objects of life and how deadly they become. The ancient process of capturing a monkey is by placing a banana in a small cage with narrow bars. The monkey comes along and puts his hand between the bars to grab the banana. Then the monkey begins the impossible task of trying to pull the banana through the bars. During this time they are captured.The amazing thing is that the moment the catchers come a long, the monkey is free to escape. Nothing is keeping them from running off to safety. All they have to do is LET GO OF THE BANANA! – Instead they refuse to let it go and they are easily taken into captivity.”
JUST LET GO OF THE BANANA!
October 2, 2018
Yesterday I made the big announcement that I am moving to Northern California next month. I have been so worried about making the announcement. I felt like I was letting my students down by not being there for their classes and I felt like I was deserting my friends and family. But the out pour of well wishes from everyone has made me feel a lot better. My dear sweet friend Bunny said that I have taught my students well and although they are sad, they understand that change happens and they can cope better with with it because of my teachings. She went on to say that all the yoga philosophy and long conversations we have had in class and at my retreats have truly made a difference in their lives. I was deeply moved by her statement and realized that my story with you does not end here. I will forever be a part of your lives through my past teachings and hopefully with new ones to come. All of you have touched me in a magical way that I will hold close to my heart.
Life has a way of changing and sometimes it changes in an instant. Today is the 14th anniversary of my mothers death. My mother was alive one day and then died in her sleep the next. There was no warning. No time to prepare. No time to say goodbye. I have been haunted by all of the things I wanted to say to my mother before she died. Like how much I loved her and how I appreciated her faith in me. Everyday she thanked me for helping her and told me she loved me. Everyday she told me how proud of she was of the woman and mother I had become. She taught me to value family, friendship and love. I will forever miss her, but her loving words will always remain in my heart.
We must remember that life is fragile and that our time here is not permanent. What ever time we share together must be cherished and valued, so that when we move on, we can have peace and love in our hearts. Life has a way of changing in an instant, so say what you need to your friends and family. I want to thank all of you for allowing me to be a part of your journey and for helping me become a better person. I am so proud of you and I have faith in you.
“There comes a stage in life, when you must go away; whether it is because of personal reasons or professional ones, goodbyes are hard, really hard. But, no one can escape them. We get so caught up in our own small world, that we don’t want to get out of our comfort zone. But, to achieve your dreams, you just gotta move away from your friends and family, sometimes. You may be going away physically, but people you love will always stay in your heart.” – Unknown
The light in me
will always honor & recognize
the light in you.
I will miss all of you very much. I have cherished our time together and you have made a difference in my life. My heart is full of love and sadness at the same time.
September 1, 2018
Just a note to let you know that my website has been updated and refreshed! There are more pictures, a video and I have added some new pages. I now have a Playlist page and a Recipe page. I have posted on both of these. You can check them out by clicking on these links. Playlists Recipes
Also, I have still have a few spots open for my October 20 Yoga Retreat. You can find more information here.
Let me know what think of the changes to my site!
Have a beautiful day!